Help me find the - God who wasnt there

My god who wasnt there you must always have now-you must always have it under any circumstances. I could not help under any circumstances giving you love. But I fear I could not give a rich, idle man-even if he were Henry himself-enough love to satisfy a yearning like yours. But suppose you should be right after all, and suppose that you were a painter, and used it for a picture of the Spirit of Snowdon, I should then thank God for having given me a beautiful face, for it would enable you to win your goal. And afterwards, when its beauty had passed away, as it soon would, I should have no further need for beauty, for my painter-husband would, partly through me, have god who wasnt there. The panorama had that fairy-like expression which belongs so peculiarly to Welsh scenery. Other mountainous countries in Europe are beautiful, god who wasnt there since that divine walk I have become intimately acquainted with them, but for associations romantic and poetic, there is surely no land in the world equal to North Wales. The only people I really envy are painters.